Rambling...

I read a post a few days ago by David duChemin…and it really made me think – more so than usual (sorry Sara).  You can check it out HERE if you haven’t already done so.

I think about life a lot and specifically I’m always wondering what the hell I should  be doing with myself in the time that I have. To not waste it.  To make sure I put my best foot forward – every single day. 

At my core, I just want to do the very best that I can by my family….by providing (both emotionally and financially).  In a bigger, broader sense…I truly enjoy helping others. I like making people smile. There’s something that clicks inside for me when that happens. My heart beats a little stronger. My kids could vouch for how many times I ask them the question, ‘Who’s it about?’ …to get them to focus on others or what we may be doing at the time.  I’m sure they might even roll their eyes. 

I have no idea where I’m going with this post.

I’m just thinking out loud.

I’m confident that I’m going to be even more intentional with my actions. I want….and I’m going…to make things happen.  I’m going to help as many people as I can along the way as well. 

My mark will be made and you should make yours too. 

If I can help you in any way, let me know…

Random shot on the way into the office...

Random shot on the way into the office...

Finding a New Rhythm...

It’s been a tough road the last few months.

Loss is never easy

The holes left in our hearts are never filled.

Forever present

…as they should be

Because their source mattered then

…and still matters now.


Time has a funny way of healing….

We catch our breath

We resume life’s crazy pace

We move forward

We rebuild

…and with each day

We allow the light back in

 

…and then

 

There was Finn.

…and the flood of life now and what was…

Merge

 

...and with each day

A new rhythm is found

Finn & Liam

Finn & Liam

Smitty daze...

Our new little guy is adjusting well…as are we.

Thanks Maryland SPCA!

I’ve been told by Sara that I’m THAT guy – the cat guy, the one posting/sharing way too many cat photos.

I’m smiling as I type this – so be it.

I am.

I will be.

Smitty is something special…

And I can’t help but look at him and feel the pets we lost over the past 3 years…

Penga

Henry

KC

…and appreciate the uniqueness that he brings to our family

His little motor is the loudest I’ve ever heard

Super smart

Super affectionate

…and great with the kids.

We really lucked out.

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Dear KC...

Yesterday we said goodbye

I stroked your head in all of the familiar places.

You know the ones.

I ran my hand along the length of your body…

…the way that always made you push against me and whirl back around for the next round

Pressed my face to yours…

One last time

Breathed deep

Kissed you

Told you how good of a boy that you were (and will always be)

…wrapped your body in the purple blanket

And walked away…

Sad to no longer hear your purrs

…or pitter patter of little white paws

…or the little meow that always accompanied a jump up on the bed, the sofa, or my lap

I’ll miss your company dearly

The warmth of your body

That sound of your motor

Thanks for being such a good good boy

I know you’re in a better place

I know that Henry and Penga will be glad to see you again

….and I find comfort in that.

Like them….I could always find you in the light…

The sunny spot

Warm

Inviting

…and like them, whenever I was near…

You always became that bright spot for me

I’ll miss that

…and think of you often

I love you KC boy

Rest in peace

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That place...

I’ve stared at this image on more than one occasion.

 

The everyday commute…

…with a little rain alongside

Bright lights

Scrambling pedestrians

Traffic

The sound of tires on wet roadways

 

The commute home…

The space in between work…

…and the ones that I love

 

Mentally adrift

…on autopilot

 

A fuzzy place

….where the mind goes everywhere and nowhere

Simultaneously

 

…and all things are possible.

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